The following is from a letter to a friend. (When I was a teenager I had the experience of dreaming lucidly for about two years.)
A little more about lucid dreaming. “What should I make of this experience?” I wondered as a youngster. I had no name for it. The first place I turned was to Freud’s “Interpretation of Dreams.” I felt cheated. Nor was there any light on the matter in my surroundings. Dreams and dreaming were simply not discussed. So I resigned myself to being alone in this. Still, I had been given a glimpse of a part of reality I simply could not ignore. I wasn’t interested in interpreting dreams, though I had the advantage of remembering them. Nor did I wish to ‘program’ them for pleasurable experiences. The most important thing was the sense of Self which seemed to result from being able to watch my mind from a little distance, moment by moment.
Nothing is forever, now I simply sleep. And my sense of self-mastery in the daytime is diminished. Still, I know what is possible and cannot, hard as it is to stay awake, turn back to the somnambulistic life. (End of letter.)
Another friend once explained to me that at some point fairly early in life each of us is given a glimpse of what he or she may one day, with effort, become. For me lucid dreaming was a glimpse of “turiya”;
“In the works of the Vedanta the witness-consiousness is, significantly, referred to as the “fourth” (*turiya*), because it is held to transcend the three “states” of waking, dreaming, and sleeping. This witnessing consciousness is said to continually apperceive the mental contents of all three states.” – George Feurstein “Structures of Consciousness” page 36.)
This experience is, I believe, what explains my ongoing interest in consciousness etc.